An end. A new beginning maybe?

I think it's time to say goodbye, for now. This Ebony is really tired and needs a little rest. There'll be lots of adventures to share in the future (perhaps) but now it's time to pause - officially. I'm on facebook (etc) if you need me.

hug

Hugging isn't something that is culture bound... but Finns still don't tend to show their affection as openly (and superficially?) as people in warmer cultures... But people who want to hug often don't hug me. Even if they hug someone else infront of me. I don't think it's because they openly hate me but because I usually seem cold because I'm so shy... they sence the "coldness". I'm not kidding. Today I saw a friend who said she wanted to hug me to congratulate me but she didn't thus I was so tence. Today I also so another friend, after a long time no see, and she hugged me. Before we said goodbyes she paused and said: "You don't seem like a person who likes to hug". Gawie...

The thing is, I do like hugs.

42.195 km

I borrowed a book called Run Your First Marathon >> Everything you need to know to get you to the finish line by Grete Waitz and Gloria Averbuch


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The cover is really nice, though!

Sigh. Don't laugh, or I might really start training ;)

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I've been battling with lots of issues this year. 2010 has been the year of issues. But when you think of it... who hasn't had trouble? Ha. Well I don't like it when things aren't going well. My new task was to just free myself from every burden. I even started building these magic walls around me so that I couldn't get hurt. But being alone behing those fences made me think alot. I saw people who helped me think. And I read books by people who were done with their thinking. No,

I didn't invent any psychological theory but to me these things are true:

Being hurt wont take you anywhere. Quite on the contrary. It's actually a trap since it stops you from being who you really are supposed to be. It stops you from enjoying life and just makes you self centered and paranoid. The pain is inevitable but it's ok to move on.

To really forgive someone who's wronged you, is the hardest thing you need to do.

Secondly. Problems aren't something to run away from. Well because you really can't and because they make you grow. It's the only thing that really makes you grow...

Isn't that one of the reasons we are here? To grow as people?

Light at the end of the tunnel

I almost had forgotten my password to the blog. That's how long I've been away. GAH. I think I've forgotten how to write but I want to learn again. This post is short but it's just to say that I'm alive.

I've been away for long. First it was because of school, I guess, but then I was worn out and then... Well anyway... This is a new beginning.

Thanks for still being there.

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My India

I have a dream. I want to go and do volunteer work in India next November. The trip is organized by Maranatha Volunteers in Finland. They fix buildings like schools, health centers and hospitals and churches. The groups that go consist of different specialists and also just random people who want to help. The Maranatha Volunteers will fix a school for the blind (sorry for not using PC-language) in central India. The trips take about two to three weeks and include some cultural exploring. Like this trip possibly includes a trip to Taj Mahal.

I have no clue where this passion for working and enthusiasm towards India came from. Maybe it's just because I'm young and naive and still got lots of childish faith and courage. I've been interested in Development policy for a long time already so that probably influences me. I'm also interested in meeting people and being in a new culture that totally differs from mine. Sigh... I want to go but then I come back to reality since the voyage wont be free, especially since it's volunteer work. If I get a summer job I think I could handle the costs but I can't use everything at ago. I think I could get a little help if I really try to use my imagination. I've got some ideas but right now I'm just praying and waiting for a miracle. Miracles do happen you know. I just can't stand the idea of not going... But if it's meant to be, it'll happen.

In a way I feel like I'm hypocrite. Today I was in the bus I saw an old lady running to the bus. The bus was full and I knew if someone wouldn't give her their seat, she'd have to stand. I knew I could be that someone but I just got scared because I like to sit in the bus and I didn't want people to look at me... I've got some issues and I can be really shy... Another woman stood up so I was more at ease... but why am I such a sissy. In what way is it embarrasing to do something good? I know that the Finnish culture can be really icy but... It's so strange that I'm going to India to do good things but am cold here? Hypocrite.

So, Ropi, that's why I need a sponsor ;)

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Haiti

Usually when bad things happen I don't feel anything. The events happen so often that I've become numb.

The earthquake in Haiti made feel really bad. My heart bleeds blood for all the people who have lost everything and everyone. I cry out loud because it's so unfair... But we've got to help the people in a way or an other: prayers, money... We just have to let them know they aren't alone.

We are so lucky, aren't we. I found a song from one of Putumayo wold music's cd´s. It's a song by a Haitian musician Beethova Obas. The song is called Rasanblé (Come Together). "Obas calls on his fellow Haitians to unite. Thinking only of yourself, he sings, will just make the country's dismal situation worse."

I think people could use a little help so... rasanblé guys!

(Sorry for the dancing girls. they kind of ruin it for me after this emotional post :D)