wa wa wah

This has been a sucky holiday.
I need a holiday.

Gahhhh

S i g h

I havent started my homework yet. Kinduuhhh sucky. I WAS going to, but then I fell a sleep. Its got to be because of the weather? Hahahah :'(

I've always wanted to go to England. And I will. I have to. In everybook and song they always repeat the same theme: listen to your heart. let your heart lead the way.. YAYAYA Well I guess its easy to sing about it. I'm not so sure does it really go that way. Theoreticly I don't even exist. My passport isnt valid and I dont have any Id, so traveling is kind of hard. And Id like to stay there for a while, but how and why? I have this secret wish inside my head to learn more English in this college, but the fee for one semester is something like 6 000e. I'd need to have two summerjobs and work in McDonalds part time so that I'd get HALF of the money. But maybe I could work as a mascot in a cruise ship!

I need to pee.

Edgar Alan Poes poem, the raven. The way I wouldhave written it.

This is just a small bit of it, but read all the italicized and fattened parts as: homework. That's how I feel. Edgar was a good poet though! Dont get me wrong. I just needed to express myself

Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered weak and weary,
Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore,
While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,
As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door.
`'Tis some visitor,' I muttered, `tapping at my chamber door -
Only this, and nothing more.'

Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December,
And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor.
Eagerly I wished the morrow; - vainly I had sought to borrow
From my books surcease of sorrow - sorrow for the lost Lenore -
For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels named Lenore -
Nameless here for evermore.

"Finland is the worlds best kept secret"

I read that from this Finland guide. It was a joke, but actually it has some truth in it. I was in ideapark today. Its supposed to be a mall. I was a little dissapointed, it was just full of... (boring)SHOPS. But what can you expect from a shoping center? Atleast I got something. (OKOK I HAVE TO ADMITT I WAS THERE FOR almost FIVE HOURS v__v)

Three times in a row I have woken up with my lights and radio on. Its really freaky.. And I cant even remember when I last woke up without being tired! Well I can makebelieve that next year can be different. Its actually funny how people always think that after 365(or 366) days you have this magical chance to begin your life again. Just like in those Disney packets where you get a book and a casette. When you've finnished the story the narrator always advices to turn the cassette over so that you can listen to the same story again. Nothing actually changes. You just might feel different, but when you get used to it you get bored and get back to the old easier ways. For example, somethings to do better next year:

-do more sports, haha
-go to bed earlier, haha
-try to consentrate, while doing my homework, haha
-do more housework
-get a (summer)job
-not buy clothes
-practise piano more

yeah thats enough for now.
I'm kinda stressed.

Elisabeth I is my hero! I just watched a BBC drama about her! Her lovelife was weird. But otherwise.. she was so cool!

THIS IS ACTUALLY WHAT I DO!!!

"Plastic cups for rum and punch, eating chicken that's hot and sweet"

I wanted to personalize (is that even a word?) my blog. Hope you didn't freak out XD

Why do teachers have to give so much homework for the holiday. Actually it should be "holiday", in quatation marks. Sigh. Well tomorrow is still holiday and I'm going shopping. Yes me. I hope you understand that in real life I'm not this shallow. The day after tomorrow will be "holiday" so I can start to do my homework (especially Physics and Latin v_ v).

great. now I made myself feel sucky again. I think I'll go and watch a horse film! (mm. horseey)

I NEED SODA!!!!

p.s I need to remember to apply for a summerjob EARLY this time.

Ho ho hoo? wait, is Santa talking about whores?

Not.
It doesn't really feel like Christmas. I vacuumed the house, made some food (yes, me.) and watched: what a wonderful world, so I guess that in theory, it's Christmas. But technically..
What is Christmas?
I don't know is it because I've grown up, but the exitement is gone. Now all I wish for is just worldpeace (mainly to me). Even the gifts don't matter. OK OK I like to buy some and even more to get. Sometimes its just annoying, If you know what I mean. Like once, I bought my Dad a comicbook and later I found it under my bed. Also all that cooking and worrying makes everyone(but me) really frustated. I can't understand what's all the fuzz about. Just relax mann. Well. I wont lie. I'm happy. In a really jazzy way. Peace

p.s Merry Christmas!