Freedom, sisterhood and equality

We've been talking about wars recently. I've come to only one conclusion. Every war is stupid. Yes I know, you don't need to be very intelligent to get the answer. It's only now when I learnt that people actually suffer. Before a war has only been a THING that happens only somewhere ealse.. and yes it's horrible that millions of people die.. But touché
. I really love our schools history teacher for teaching us how silly it is to think that way. I mean it could have been me. It could have been your best friend. Everyone who ever died, died without any good reason. And why?

Aristotle thought that women are too emtional to even be true citizens. I just wondered... What would have the world become like if women were rulers.. with all their PMS mushy-ness. What would a hardcore female dictator be like? (NO! I don't really want to know).

I'm tired.
But I'm happy we're safe here!

The second Messiah

Obama has got something in him. Thanks to him, America had its first WORLD election. I don't really know much about politics, but I'm sure Obama was a wiser choise. I mean cmon:
1) His young (all that junk about no being experienced.. WELL! Experience is more than sitting in a congress)
2) He has good ideas
3) He wants change. He IS a change in the whole history
But the change part bothers me... He is the person everyone wants, but they forget one thing. He is not a redeemer. People are helping the global warming come faster, but now they expect that Obama will change everything. He is just a human. A very good and talented human, but what will happen when people notice that change takes time. Even Obama can't change the way we act. He can be our inspiration though. "One man can't change the world, but you've got to start from somewhere." Hmm--

sure...

I want to believe that there is tstill hope in this bizarr place called Earth and I want to do something in order to make others feel hope too. So.. these are thoughts thoughts thoughts. Trying to find myself.

Copied from my profile.. Yeah well. I'm not the most positive person in the world. Well the internet really makes things look like they aren't. I've learnt to be too depressing sometimes. Life is too short for being depressing. I know I know: Feeling sad or angry is normal but if I write it here I make myself look like a person with no life no hope no future... like Homer. I mean. This is no therapy blog. So I decided to stop nagging about my private issues. I can do my "Dear Diary" the old fashioned way. I've really learnt to like you guys.. nagging will just make you pissed off. (It makes me pissed off!!) So from now on just thinking but not consentrating on me so much :). I need to do a little growing up.

OK maybe some random updating.

p.s i just want you to know (:D).. the meme answers had to be so corny since you had only eight(?) words to use..

--Yeah right Ebony

meme?

1. WHERE WERE YOU TEN YEARS AGO?
I was being a really really good student.

2. WHATS ON YOUR TO DO LIST TODAY?
To read the book: Jhonny got his gun

3. WHAT IF YOU WERE A BILLIONAIRE?
I'd buy a yamaha 211s and donate alot.

4. FIVE PLACES YOU HAVE LIVED:
Nairobi, Kenya, Africa and Tampere and Espoo, Finland

5. THREE BAD HABITS:
Sarcasm, being fat, not working hard enough, yeah

6. SNACKS YOU LIKE:
MARMELADE! taco chips, coconut chocolate, kiwi fruit. MARMELADE!

wa wa wah

Hi!
Many things have happened since I returned. I'm sorry that I've not been talking. I've been talkin in my head.. alot.. But I just didn't feel like I could type the words. I totally owe you guys a story from France, but... we'll see. By the way. Spacekake and Ropi. Thanks for your comments. They kind of made me feel really.. ha. jolly. No really.. We'll you know what I mean...
Lately I've gotten older. In my head. I've started to think alot. In away I'm lost, since in a way I'm a child, but on the otherhand I'm pretty much I decide things alone, make my onwn mistakes and take responsibility of my actions. It's kind of scary. Growing up that is. Lately I've really worried about what to study after high school. I've had trouble with study technics. I might be up at midnight studying and being stressed because there's not enough time, even though in the end I've done nothing useful.. I want to have a good job when I grow up. I don't want to be poor, but I want to do something I'll enjoy. I don't want to end up as a "those who can't do, teach" kind of a person. I also don't want to be a person who tells people how she USED to play in a band, but now she works in a stuffy office. Stuffy offices can be ok, if working their is your calling! Don't get me wrong.
Music. It's important for me. I know I don't have enough potential to be a full time musician but I want to play as an amature.. I want to play forever. I just hope I can consentrate on studying too. It's so funny. When I was in a conservatoire, I was sure I want to be a doctor and music is only a hobby. Now I take music seriously when it's a little too late. Maybe. I don't know.
I decided to play the flute.
I found a cheap (used) flute I could actually afford. I just hope things work out. I need to get an other job though.. Cause If I start taking lessons.. it means that I'll remain with NOTHING.
Sigh.. I just hope I'll know I'll end up in the right place.
I'd like to do something international.
*smiles. I rember this post I wrote like a year ago, where I said I want to be a doctor... but I also wanted to hepl abroad.. GAH. It's a nightmare.
My brain is full of thoughts and I also should consentrate on lessons and.. Oh well. This sounds really messy, but I'm happy. All this thinking makes me feel really lonely. I like being alone, but I boy, how I hate being lonely.. Anyway. All this mumbo JAMBO might seen full of angst and stuff, but actually I'm happy, since I've started to believe in dreams again.

Bla bla bla

Hi!
No, I didn't die in France. I just haven't had time to write. I actually haven't really felt like writing either. I'll be back someday. (heh)

La République Française est une nation d'Europe. Sa capitale est Paris.

So I thought I'd come and say bye (I thought about you, Baino!!). I'm leaving on Monday morning. I need to go to my school with a buss that leaves at 4.55.. in the morning.. but somehow I just feel really exited. ha. I just hope I'll remember to take everything... Yeah well anyway, I'll let you know how things turned out. See you in a couple of weeks :)!