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I want to wish you guys a happy Christmas! Thank you for being there :)

why

A girl was raped on Friday. No, it wasn't me. Yes, I know - these things happen everyday. Even in Finland. It's just... 'these things' happen in the papers - never to us. Nothing happened to me, nor to anyone I know personally but it happened just behind our apartment block in a forest and it was only 9.45 p.m. I think I saw a policecar... I'm not sure was it on Friday, though.

The worst thing is that.. the girl was 17 and she was coming home from a place nearby where people go do sports and other freetime activities... SHE COULD HAVE BEEN ME! I don't think the girl was irresponsible.. She was probably just going home after her dance class or something.. like she always had done before...

Where do those people come from? They think they own someone and can use them like that... In away.. to me.. that was a wakeup call: I really need to stop living in a bubble. I need to be more careful. Now I really understand why my parents used to be so worried and protective when I was smaller.... I don't live in a bubble. I'm not going to be paranoid for the rest of my life... but I just...

...I feel really sorry for the girl. It's not like she'll go and see a shrink and things'll get better. How can she ever even look at a man without feeling disgusted?

These things happen every day, don't they. I can't carry all these things on my shoulders but this time I'm really sorry. I bet she won't see this post but well. If you do I truly am sorry. It doesn't make things right... It might not even make sence... but I truly am.

And you horny selfish migrants (note: I'm not a racist. the girl said they weren't finns) who can't make yourselves useful: I hope you're happy. You've successfully ruined someones life. For good.

Don't cross the picket line

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I'm tired of always just watching how things'll turn out.

There's not that much money because of this horrible fincial crisis that's been bugging our lives for so long. It's not the first time in the world... these things happen. It's just the first time these economical issues affect my life in a negative way... so that I can see it. As a child when things were badly Mom and Dad and every other adult would fix it. Sigh.

They want to close down many schools and make bigger ones inorder to save money. How? Well when they've got fewer buildings to look after for they can save money... I don't know ALL the facts. No official desicions have been made so this is the time when one should complain. According to the local newspaper, even the city bureaucrats are awe-struck about the major plans which is kind of silly since they are the people desiding... I don't want to sound naive. I don't know all the facts and I'm sure all the officials are, in a weird way, thinking about everyones best.. It's just that...

Politicians seem to forget us.. forget the everyday life. YES there is too little money.. We have to make changes. I don't object the changes but I wish they'd remember that too big class sizes make it really hard for the students to learn properly. Yes, with more pupils, more interesting courses can be arranged. Like one can stude Portugese for example since in a school of 1000 people there will be more than one interested in the language and the course needn't be arranged for only one or two people. But in my oppinion the most important thing is that we can get good teaching and then get a good general knowledge we can use in life and then educate ourselves and then be useful to our community. I'm sure in the end, everyone agrees with me. For example... They teach Japanese to high school students in our school. Many people are interested and they come from all over the city. Why can't we just be individual schools and cooperate. Mix schools that have a completely different tradition..? nerds versus artists... No way José. Too hasty and shallow desicions may cost alot in the future.

I just don't know. All I know is I don't want to just sit and watch. I don't even know why I care since I'll be long gone by the time they'l (possibly) l close the schools. I'm afraid I'll sound too naive and... Writing to a newspaper is so official. One other girl from our school said it'd be great if I did it... if many could write.. since then it'd get more attention. Argh. Sigh. Gah. I wish I could hind behind a nick name. Many have suggested that I should use our schools Finnish teacher's name but I know there are easier ways to commit suicide...

a happy meal

The smell spread everywhere. A young mother and her child were eating a hamburger meal in the bus. I couldn't but feel sad and a little sick too when the mother kept giving the small chid COKE, french fries and the hamburger. I know it's fast and reasonably cheap but... GAH.

Shouldn't we be teaching our offspring how to lead a healthy life? I have to admit my parents sometimes bought me some special meals meant for children (toys included!!) after they picked me up from kindergarten. I wont lie: the food is nice and tempting a very unhealthy way. But I want you to know that I was really chubby too. It's so ironic how we are dying of being too fat and at the same time people are dying because they don't have anything to eat...

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My friend once told me that because in Israel the food in restaurants usually has to be kosher (Jewish dietary laws: Jews don't mix milk products with meat), people are asked wheather they want cheese or beef between their bred. I thought it was hilarious. It was a joke though. There are kosher McDonalds´too...

A list of random small things that made me happy this week part1

- A good exam results
- Enthusiasm for school
- Walks in the nature and looking at the awesome autumn colours
- I found the books I wanted from the library
- Planning an interrail trip (for now it'll only happen in my head, though...)
- Take6´s song 'Even though'
- The smell of fresh doughnuts (mmm... doughnuts)
- Dreaming of speaking fluent French
- Finding out that my eyesight is ok
- Playing the guitar and the piano
- Eating a delicious dessert
- Meeting a friend
- My granny
- Hot chocolate
- Thinking of the upcoming holiday
- A random person kept the door open for me
- My Aunt mailed me
- The Improbatur-magazine came and it was really interesting
- We had a sports day in school and the weather was lovely
- I was able to fight temptations and avoid going to the annoyingly popular sales that are going on right now. People are carrying yellow bags everywhere and suddenly have the need of some random product...
- Ice-cream
Count your blessings, ehh? it's really funny when you come to think of it... So many nice things happen and so often I miss them... or am too busy to enjoy them.

Prinsessa!

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I really enjoy being creative and tinkering with small things. I especially enjoy scrap-booking kind of projects where I decorate note books that have pictures and special memories in them. I made one after our school dance last February. I must say it's much nicer to look at than a traditional albums. Plus there is more room to write stuff about funny things that happened...

This one is extra girly because that's how I fealt that day, like a princess. I guess that's why the crown's there aswell. I got my hairdo inspiration from Thandie Newton. The back isn't "as succesful" but I like the real flower, though.

Doing stuff by yourself is really worth trying. It's more valuable than buying everything ready made :)

SOS!

I don't know what to write. My head is blank. I want to write but I can't. I hope this is just a phase.

I'm so tired and miserable right now :'(

I just wanted you to know I'm alive but for now... I'm silent.


I love this song.